We live in a modern world, a world which is supposed to have cures and ways of getting out of problems, defining what you want, helping you to discover yourself in time, helping you to develop yourself professionally... but in the same time, we ended up in a world where we feel a lot more lost than found.
Lately I've been trying to force myself into thinking and analyzing, reading and comprehending what is happening to me, the process I'm going through, what am I thinking, what do I want to do etc. Sometimes I think it's weird to do so. I was lucky enough, so far, that opportunities came and I took them exactly when it was supposed to happen. Or that was my impression, at least. Sometimes I think it's ironical... why to force myself to think and analyze in order to discover? Why are we living in this modern world which supposedly has the answers to all the questions minus the most important ones... Do I really have to close myself in a box and think? Or do things appear and we just use them?
Sometimes we feel lost, we feel alone, sad or unappreciated. And we seek for help in this world, thinking that a modern world, the world we see on TV or in papers, should be able to help us. But we end up on medication or talking with doctors about what is happening... isn't that taking our freedom away from us? We hear everyday that smoking kills. The best story I heard about it was how our body rejects at the beginning the smoke, because our body was created and developed throughout thousands of years to protect itself again the bad things... So why end up on medication to treat something? Isn't it supposed for our body to cure itself? How were people 2000 years ago use to get away from sad stuff? I'm sure they were upset because they did not hunt enough animals to support "financially" their families :)
We hear everyday that we are allowed to dream if we want to innovate, we should dare to build our future, but how are we suppose to do that when we hear someone telling us that we lost self respect, we need pills to survive (what is doing that to your self esteem?) or that we need to start thinking about our future. How to you think about your future? You sit at a table, by yourself, with pen and paper in hand and you start asking questions about what you want? You go to a shrink which is going to talk with you (actually ask you questions) until you discover what you want? But isn't that a waste of time? Maybe my future is passing me by while I'm talking with my shrink about it...
There are moments when we have to take decisions about our future, but sometimes we end up being so lost or tired, that we cannot decide so easily about it... maybe we ended up in the wrong future, because this modern world does not provide all the time what it promises...
