Going home for Christmas holidays was a very interesting experience for me. Not seeing my friends or spending time with my family, but because I felt I need to make some changes in my life, to make some resolutions for 2011, to say goodbye to some things from 2010 or to some friends.
Home found me being weird, feeling a lot of things and being confused about even more. But being home calmed me down, offered me the possibility of thinking very clear at my past, my present and my future. And I was so happy when the time spent alone or with old friends around me started to produce results and decisions. Now, I don't want to live anymore in the past or feeling sorry for some things; I want to live the present and prepare slowly for my future. I felt the urge to write ever since I arrived back in Dominican Republic, but lack of time did not allow me. But I want to write again, to be written black on white written my thoughts, my feelings, my ideas and never to forget them.
This life took me through weird and unexpected moments, from those that proved me that I am a strong person and that I know when to stop from things that hurt me, until things that I had never even dreamed about. I don't know why, but for more than a month I feel very confident and free and capable of doing a lot of things. And I'm really pushing myself to do only things that are good for me and to stop doing things that I'm addicted to, just because they taste good for one moment.
This year I'm going to go in exchange, I'm going to work in a company in western Europe and I will have a good salary and I will start the slow transition between the organization that gave me the best 4 years of my life to corporate life. This year I'm going to read at least that 52 books (at least one per week). This year I'm going to take my parents to Rome by plane and we are going to visit the city for at least 4 days (on my own expense). These were the resolutions I managed to set so far for 2011, but I feel it's enough for this moment.
One of the best/worst moment that I went through in January was that my laptop crashed. I don't know the reason for it, but I know that all of a sudden, I could not load windows anymore and the partition with windows installed was not seen. The bad part was that I realized I could not fix it and I needed help (direct hit in my ego) and this came together with the fact that I could not ask for help from anybody (all my friends with IT knowledge are in Romania). The best things were that I managed to find friends in Dominican Republic to help me repair it and that I did not call my old friends whom I used to help me repair it usually (which means I broke an addiction). I'm so happy I could solve the situation alone, but in the same time with friends. January was a breaking point for me; I broke a very important addiction and I'm free from one of the most challenging things in my life.
February showed me the other side of the coin: that in life you can obtain things you never dreamed about. In February I celebrated 4 months with my boyfriend in Dominican Republic in the most sweetest way possible: romantic dinner in a fancy restaurant on the seashore of the Atlantic Ocean, in the Caribbeans. While being there I realized I have never even dreamed about doing that and yet it happened. This reminded me of something a guy told me home at the high-school reunion: good things come to those you who wait. I have never waited for this, but it was a good thing :)
This year is going to be changing and good :) and it started like that :)
